Weeks End

I have to say the first week went really fast. I filled with with seeing friends, getting caught up around the house, and spending time with my little men. I had one kid get sick last night and a teething, non sleeping fussy baby today. I sort of hit a wall and really wished my husband would walk through the door and just take over. It is times like that I can't imagine another 380+ days of this. I love that I can stay home, but dread the fact that when I am purely exhausted... it is just not in the cards for me to rest. Luckily, the baby went down early and I was able to do something special with the bigger boys. After two wake ups already... he is resting peacefully. I only pray it lasts. I have read every book on getting your baby to sleep through the night. This child just doesn't need to sleep. He is up at least 2 times every night and then a nap was pretty much nonexistent today. Here it is after 10 and I should be in bed. But, holding on to the fact that my husband will be able to call in the next hour. He has been able to text with me occasionally throughout the days, but phone calls and E-mails have been nonexistent. It really is hard when all of a sudden, the person you turn to just can't be there for you. I know it is not by choice, so I try really hard to be positive and not get angry at him. I have to remind myself that the anger is at the situation and I really can't spend the next year angry. Praying for a good night and a peaceful day tomorrow.