Never Easy

I just sent AJ off for his conference in Oregon for a few days. Every time I see this bag come out, it makes me nauseous. I knew I would cry when I said "see ya later". Maybe it was because our 18 month old was in the middle of a tantrum and the thought of no help the next few days just became overwhelming, or maybe it is just because it never gets easier no matter how long he is away. Truth be told, I hate being away from him. It is a crazy time with school for me right now. Papers and presentations going on. My only hope is that this weekend I can get everything done with school, so that I can take a week off and enjoy it with him before he starts back to his civilian job. Our nights of going to bed together are coming to an end, good old night shift is looming. I'm hoping that I will get some energy to do my school work then, and carve in some prayer time. Well, speaking of school... it is time to log on. My policy class is first, and I know now that I am not cut out to work on policy. I am a clinical social worker through and through. I like to listen and do. Policy and debate just aren't my cup of tea.