Whew...

I sat down a few times yesterday to post. I have a new rule... no posting when I am feeling down or mad at the whole situation.

I started reading a book today called Behind the Blue Star Banner. I always love books done by military spouses. I have always been told I should write me own story. Maybe this will give me the push I need to start writing. After all, I have a long year ahead of me. The first chapter had me sobbing. She puts into words, everything I always have running through my head. There are two quotes I LOVE. The first talks about the PRIVILEGE of living with your spouse and how civilians take it for granted. When we so badly want to enjoy the privilege of knowing our husbands will always wake up next to us. The second quote talked about saying good bye to her husband. She says that when she kissed him good bye for a year, she knew it was the least she could do to sacrifice a year of time without him so that he could complete a job that would mean years of freedom for many many others. The last one talks about the military wife and being selfless when you so badly want to be selfish. LOVE this quote. " But most of all, it means(hanging a blue star banner) that inside this home, there is someone who is fighting her selfish human nature every single day so she can admirably honor a hero who deserves all the support in the world." This will be my deployment motto. Our job really is a gift. Although at times it seems to be a curse. I will use this deployment to make good and I will not allow myself to feel sorry for myself... ok maybe once a week. =)