The Light

Have you ever had one of those moments that God is speaking directly to you at church ? Today I had one of those moments. I have been just plain tired. Tired of this deployment, tired of taking care of everyone, and just tired of doing everything on my own. Today I was reminded that I need to be the light for all those people. God gave me the light and I can not cover it. This song touched me.
I've been holding on
I've been holding on
All that is inside me
Screams to come back home

If you feel lost
If you feel lost
Sing along
If you feel tired
If you feel tired
Sing along

If you feel lost and tired
This is your song

I've been broken down
I've been broken down
I ain't giving up
Love will come back around

Shine Your light
Shine it down on us
Let Your rescue come for us
We long to love

Shine Your light
Shine it down on us
Let Your rescue come for us now

And if you feel lost, sing along
And if you feel tired, sing along

Oh my God
Shine Your light on us
That we might live

Week 1

One week down! It has been chaotic and my stress level was very high. AJ made it safe and we have been able to communicate in some form everyday. The boys have been acting out and not listening. 3 more days of school, then they are all home ! I am not going to lie I am excited about the more lazy days of summer and having more hands for G.
G has been sleeping awesome. I have been letting him fall asleep on his own for naps and night. He has been sleeping 10 hours at night. Still up between 5:30 and 6! It is a good thing I am a morning person.
The boys have started baseball. I am headed to sit in this glorious 90 degree weather!
School is going good. I have finished my first paper. It has definitely been a change of pace and my house reflects that.
We went to our new church again this week and I left feeling amazing. I really think God led us there for a reason. It is so fun to have a group of friends to go with and talk about things with!

Keeping The Faith

The boys and I visited a nondenominational church yesterday with some friends. I have been Catholic my whole life. I joined MOPS this year and it really got me thinking about my faith. I love the tradition of the Catholic church, but I feel like I am starving for more scriptural teachings and how I can apply it to my life. I have to admit it was a huge difference, but I quickly got sucked into the modern music and the relation of the sermon to my life. The boys really enjoyed it as well. I'm struggling today with guilt. I feel as if we leave the church , I may be depriving G of his First Communion and other traditions the boys had. We have decided to go some more and then maybe we'd attend both or alternate. I am not sure just yet.