Decisions

The past three weeks have been full of adjustments and eye opening experiences. I like to think I can do it all. But, the past few weeks have humbled me. I know that I can do it all, but can I do it all with out crumbling... not so sure. I have made some decisions in the past few weeks to limited whatever is not necessary. My kids are my priority and getting them through the next year. Love my job and the flexibility, but am thinking of working on a smaller level. Still selling real estate, but just on a smaller scale. It is not what I want. But, it maybe what I need to do to keep it all together. My partners have made me a proposal, and we will see what the coming days bring. It makes me pretty emotional when I think about it. Because, I feel like I am letting myself and them down. Sometimes... just sometimes I wonder when is my time? When I went into this job and had Graycen, it was going to be all about team parenting and splitting the duties. I refuse to put Graycen with a sitter full time. I just won't. I did that with my other boys, and feel like I missed out on so much and the time I was with them Mommy was grouchy. Please just say a prayer that God guides me and gives me the answers I need.