Getting It All Together

It is so nice to have AJ home. We had a meeting with my partners today. I have decided to put my real estate license in referral status for the next year. I am still a REALTOR and will take care of my clients. I will also be involved in every step of the way with any new clients. I just will use my partners to show houses, and do the "legal" stuff. We decided (the 4 of us) that it would be the best for all of us while AJ was gone. I had a very hard time coming to this decision. I want to do everything and do everything well. This deployment has humbled me and I know that I can't do everything and do everything perfect. I have to admit I feel a bit like a failure. I was once able to balance all my hats. Throwing a baby in the mix with a teenager, and another little boy has just proved to be too much to be working 40+ hours a week. I will get time to focus more on my family and to give my clients 100% care.

I was glad they wanted AJ in on the conversation. He did make it easier. Yes, I cried most of the way through it. Because I do want it ALL! Our orignial plan with splitting the childcare will not work and I am totally against putting G in daycare. I did that with my other boys and always have felt a bit guilty. If anything from our time in military. I have realized that kids grow super fast and that you have to enjoy every minute. So... here I go.