Week 1 done.. On to Week 2

Week 1 actually went fast, with few melt downs. It is amazing that I can feel so good when I wake up, feel like I am in my groove, then BAM! Something sets me off and I am a sobbing mess or just a B**tch. The best advice I did get before we started this deployment.... this is the one time in life I can be a B**tch and just say No. I need to learn the No part better and keep my plate cleaner. It is much harder going through a deployment with 3 kids. 2 who are running all the time, one who doesn't sleep, or let me get anything finished throughout the day. I am hating how disorganized I have been the past month and how I can't find anything. I even have forgotten to put things in my calendar, and I am religious at it usually! I try not to let AJ know how I am feeling, but it is so hard when I am used to telling him everything. I guess I am in the mad stage, and I want him to feel what I feel. This week I look forward to getting more into a routine. Football is coming to an end in the next few weeks. I still have to find a dress for our vow renewal and what the kids are wearing. Time to turn my energy into that!