Heartbroken

Yesterday, my heart broke. I noticed while getting my hair done, that my diamond and all the prongs were gone on my wedding ring. I am completely superstitious and don't want to change a thing before AJ leaves. I know what will be ... will be. No ring, lucky penny, etc will change that. But, in my little mind... just maybe it might. People told me that it can be replaced, true. But, after 15 years of marriage, 3 children, 5 deployments, lots of ups and downs and adjustments... I want that ring. That ring was suppose to be blessed at our vow renewal. I have filled an insurance claim, and hopefully it will get here by our vow renewal mid November. *Sigh* It still makes me sick to my stomach.