Getting Ready

We continue to busily get ready for the deployment. We enjoyed a whole week with AJ home, and will get him home all of this week. Monday starts our new realty. We have a weekend of deployment briefs and the ball this weekend. I had my girls trip planned with my Mom and my sisters to scope out stuff for my sisters wedding in Florida I had to cancel my ticket today, and that hit me pretty hard. I didn't want AJ to see I was upset, but I couldn't help but not cry. I try so hard to be strong, but sometimes... just sometimes I don't want to be strong anymore. I want to be the "normal" family and know my husband is going to be home with me and we can plan things with him in it. I had a bit of a panicky feeling this morning. I think it is all finally hitting me. I think I have stayed so busy, that I haven't let myself really let it sink in. But, it is quickly becoming my realty and I am not ready.

Last night, AJ cancelled all the things on our calendar and we had a family night out. We took the kids to the new Bass Pro shop and had dinner in their new restaurant. The kids enjoyed it and it was nice to not have to run to football practice. Here is a cute photo I took.