Loss Of Words

This week a few of my deployment battle buddies and I have had this discussion. My Marine has been gone this time for about 6 weeks, gone totally since October. We are lucky that when he is stateside, we have been able to text, chat, E-mail, and Skype throughout the day. Lately I have found myself not having a ton of things to share with him when we chat on the phone or Skype. This left me feeling bad.

Was our relationship falling apart? What in the world are we going to talk about on our last leave block? Are we pulling back from each other? These are all questions that were running through my head.

Yes, I am sure that we are pulling back from each other a bit. We both know that we can get through the day on our own. We both just have been going through the motions for awhile now. Does he love me less? No! I have to remember that this is a great time to not relying on communication. In a few short weeks, I will no longer be able to text or call him when I want to. That is going to be difficult. Graycen has been calling him in the morning and before bed. I just love watching his eyes light up when he calls Da.

I need to start my journal of things that I want to make sure that he knows. Some days, I feel that maybe he won't find those things important or they aren't worth sharing. But, someday I know that we will discuss everything. Has anyone else felt like this facing a deployment?